oolala, what you said. Exactly.
Feeling fantastic being back on three meals. I went to the farmers market for the first time this morning and brought my parents. We bought local green/yellow beans, beets, corn and strawberries. Will be a feast tonight
I was not hungry at all for an early breakfast, so I just had juice and waited it out. We were home by 10:30am and I bought fresh croissants at the grocery store - let's be honest not the most authentic - but heated up in the oven were quite nice actually. The tiniest smear of jam, those delicious fresh local strawberries, small cup of coffee and juice. I feel great.
I'll push lunch off a bit, maybe until 1 or so, and then dinner around 6:30pm I'm guessing. I'll update on my food. My goal right now is 100% just to try my best preparing and enjoying three meals. They don't have to be perfect, or one plate, or whatever...just getting away from snacking, eating quickly, and not enjoying what I've made. It really is just feeling so freeing and wonderful.
Just had lunch. Some fruit, 1 cevapcici, 2.5 perogies, small pile of rice and a paleo chocolate chip cookie with natural pb. I had two lying around since I made them, not much time or options. Feeling very good!
Dinner was lovely. I made a recipe I just saw that sounded good and I had all the ingredients: creamy lemony pasta. I just type what main ingredients I have into google and it's amazing what you can find. It was divine. Wings, as well as fresh homemade bread (that 5 minute artisan recipe) and sauteed beans with bacon.
Today was super easy. My mindset has totally shifted. I'm not doing this super strict must be perfect kind of way. I'm just casually steering myself into three meals a day, no fuss, no stress. I had a bean, and snitched a tiny piece of bacon before dinner to try it, and that didn't set me off because I "failed". I was not picking, and didn't even think to. I had more helpings because I started with small portions - again, would have set me off to fail, but not anymore.
I think I'm in a great position right now to teach myself new habits. I'm not looking for weight loss, so it's truly about building a new lifestyle. One that doesn't include binging for small things. Having that stress completely lifted allows me to just focus on this one thing. Plus, the what-the-hell effect isnt grabbing me anymore. I say to myself, well, this was a far improvement to what I usually do, and I'm happy with myself.
Physically, I'm feeling better than ever.