Everyday Systems

March 1
216.6

Thanks oolala - sometimes I feel I am running in place

My goal for today is to walk - I have not been walking

milczar wrote:I am down about 50 pounds.

Seriously good work! Slow and steady, you kept your focus with life happening all around you. That is such an incredible accomplishment.

Congratulations!

Thanks no bs. 5 years ago I went through a divorce. I was at my heaviest at that point. It has taken me so long and slow to take the weight off, that I don't always feel I see the progress. And I still have a ways to go. But I have to remind myself that I have accomplished something and that it can be done. And standing in place is always better than gaining.

216.7 this morning. I am in a holding pattern. But I ate a lot of junk yesterday

B = cobb salad, ranch, saltine crackers, juice, 1/2 oz. dark chocolate 70 percent

L = fried chicken breast, roll, fries, ketchup, some orange soda

D = two tacos with salsa, horrible salty snacks: chex mix, pistachio nuts, corn nuts

no walk
drinks

going to try better today
not good

March 5, 2013
216.7

Was not a great eating day. Started out good, then turned into stress eating. We had the state writing test, and the stress of that made me turn to chocolate. And just the general fact that I loathe my job and see no way out at this point, does not lend well to good eating.

B = clam chowder, bread, oj, coffee

L =bread (probably too much), 2 pieces individual wrapped brie cheeses, hummus, 1 large chocolate bar, one mini m & m's pack, sigh

D = wine, more wine, snacked on pistachios salted, chex mix, slice of cheese, can of cambells double noodle soup, 1/2 package mac and cheese, more chex mix, probably something else I'm not remembering sigh, can you say salt, fat, processed, carbs,

no walk
alcohol

yeah, it was that kind of day

that was my tuesday... and weds a lesser degree. i understand and sympathize

milczar:

There is very little in this world that wine, cheese & chocolate cannot make better!

Have a great weekend & be kind to yourself. Next week is a fresh start.

216.6

B = kaiser roll, 2 brie cheeses individual wrap, cup of clam chowder, oj

L = part of a chili cheese omelet, some hash browns, some toast, ketchup, coffee, some soda

D = steak, roast veges, potatoes

wine and candy =(

no walk
alcohol

need to stop stress eating, snacking and the candy

still between 215 and 216.

goal is to walk today

216.2

Little disappointed because I felt I ate well yesterday, other than dinner time snacking. Packed my lunch today again, so at least I am avoiding eating out


today's plan:

B = fruit, half oz. 70% dark chocolate, homemade pasta with marinara

L = fruit, homemade lentil soup

D = tba

patience is so key to this process. sometimes I get impatient.

217.


no surprise there. went wild with food and drink yesterday. Today has to be better. I know I went overboard because I still feel full from yesterday and it is breakfast time.

Oh, I do know that feeling...ugh!

Hang in there - just keep moving forward until the habits click into place. You can do it!

217.2

The scale is moving the wrong way. Although they are excuses, nevertheless here they are: St. pattys day weekend, too much junk, dog is sick and not looking great (stress/emotional eating), life is kind of blah right now, rude guy at the bar made a rude comment about fat women (more emotional eating). etc. etc. etc. And yet that is no excuse, because life will never be perfect enough for ideal weight loss and no emotional eating.

sigh

215.2

don't know how with all the st patty day eating. but I will take it

B = ham, cheese, mayo, mustard sandwich on large kaiser roll, lemonade,
coffee black

L = some clam chowder, large salad with veges, cottage cheese, olives, beans, peppers, etc, and balsamic dressing, 1/2 oz dark chocolate bar

Two pounds, eh! Good job!!

215.4

I keep hovering around the same weight. I have to remind myself that it is better than gaining. And I really need to start walking again

217.4. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

214.8

B = large kaiser roll with cheese, pickle

L= some chicken noodle soup, and leftover chicken marsala with noodles, mushroom gravy and green beans, dark chocolate half ounce,

D = sandwich with a ground beef cutlet and arugula, oj

I think that is it

no walk
alcohol

211.8

But I am not getting too excited, I have had two days of food poisoning. So it is mostly water weight

212.6

B = none

L = 1/2 pita shawarma with beef, hummus, garlic spread, lettuce, tomatoes, some fries with ketchup, onion ring with ranch, ice tea

D = soup, appetizer, steak, potato, bread, pie with homemade whipped cream, and some spoons of whipped cream into my mouth while making it

alc.

215.2

Went a little wild on three day vacation and ate a lot. Back home and back to normal

215.4

Vacation almost over, time to get back to it

healthiest food in the world: kale, spinach, beans, 70% dark chocolate, grass fed beef, omega 3 eggs, fruits, vegetables, extra virgin olive oil, nuts, lean organic meat and poultry, wild salmon,

have to try eating more whole food

B = 12oz. fresh squeezed oj, panini with sourdough bread, butter, tomato, basil, cheese

L = tba

D = tba

214.6

milczar, I have been reading over some of your posts. I am impressed with your weight loss! 50 lbs is nothing to sneeze at! Congratulations. I'm curious, I know I would not be able to take the highs and lows of weighting every day. How have you been able to overcome that?

I have been weighing myself everyday, lately. But over the past several years there were many times where I wouldn't weigh myself for weeks, even months. I guess it just depends. If weighing yourself everyday makes you crazy, then don't do it.

I paid the price today. 219. Ugh. I have been stress eating and Easter eating didn't help.
But I know this is a life long struggle, I mean journey, and if I am going to be honest with myself, I went up because I have been snacking, eating sweets, seconds, and snacking on junk. I have to get back on the path.

I am proud of the weight loss, but I am still far from goal. And sometimes this snails pace, two steps forward one step back, drives me nuts. But...I know being on weight watchers drove be 10x as insane, so what can you do. Crack away at it a little everyday is all I can do.

Crack away at it a little everyday is all I can do.

That's probably the secret.
We all know that it's incredibly simple but a the same time unbelievably hard (sometimes). You've been very successful so far and you will be even more so!

What part of Germany are you from? I have family in Poland. I use to live there.


216.2

yesterday was not horrible eating wise, well at least breakfast and lunch:

B = toasted whole grain bagel with cream cheese and large oj

L = brc burrito

D = fettucine, silver dollar pancakes with butter and syrup, a few slices cheese, I think that is it, no wait, cookies =(

alc.
no walk

milczar wrote:healthiest food in the world: kale, spinach, beans, 70% dark chocolate, grass fed beef, omega 3 eggs, fruits, vegetables, extra virgin olive oil, nuts, lean organic meat and poultry, wild salmon,

Beautiful healthy whole foods, beautiful healthy whole life.

You wrote a 50 pound book of success & carry that wisdom with you on any path you choose to walk.

215.4.

its like my body doesn't want to get below 200

No BS. You are from the Canadian high arctic, I'm assuming you are where it is rather cold =) Good weather for soup.

It's not about speed, because speed will backfire on you. It isn't about slip ups or perfection. It's about slow, sustainable, and sanity. It's about doable. And cracking away at it a little each day. I went out clothes shopping today. Not because I am at goal weight, because I am far from it. But because over the past 7 years I have chipped away at 50 pounds. Clothes shopping isn't as painful as it use to be. And I need to celebrate that instead of waiting for the next 50 to come off before I feel attractive enough to clothes shop.

Congrats on the 50 pounds gone!

Sometimes I get jealous of the people who lose 50 pounds in six months or less, but that is just not my journey. They may be able to commit to salads for lunch, and broiled chicken and broccoli for dinner, but that's just not me. If I knew that seven years from now I would be down 50 pounds (and would have accomplished it in a way that leads to maintenance), I would be a very happy woman.

milczar wrote: And I need to celebrate that instead of waiting for the next 50 to come off before I feel attractive enough to clothes shop.

Good for you for living in the present moment. It's so tempting to be in the mindset of "when I get thin, then this or that will happen..." Been there, done that

milczar wrote:No BS. You are from the Canadian high arctic, I'm assuming you are where it is rather cold =) Good weather for soup.

In the high Arctic it is ALWAYS great weather for soup or stew!!

milczar wrote:Clothes shopping isn't as painful as it use to be. And I need to celebrate that instead of waiting for the next 50 to come off before I feel attractive enough to clothes shop.

It is absolutely amazing the fabulous boost one gets from enjoying a well chosen outfit - in whatever size - on the way down.

And yet that same size can be so distressing when purchased on the way up.

Stunning how progressing towards a goal, and having control, changes the entire psychology of a clothes purchase.

Happy shopping! You sure have earned it !

215.4 I am happy with that considering how crazy stressed work has been. Which usually leads me to stress eating. Considering the junk I have been consuming lately, I'm just happy to be maintaining. Two more weeks of intense work stress, then I will see some light at the end of the tunnel.

B = cup of noodle instant soup, multi grain bagel toasted with cream cheese, large green ice tea unsweetened from starbucks

S = small bag of chips =(

L = clams chowder canned soup, i think another bag of chips

D = snacked/grazed, chips, guacamole, salsa, juice, and some other stuff

today I will try better

no walk=(
alcohol=(

Today was not a good day food wise. overate. sigh. and just realized that someone, or maybe me by accident erased some of my entries on the daily check in here. Don't know how I did that. I use to have 7 pages I believe and now I have 4, strange.

215.6

lots of stress eating.

B = part of a chicken sandwich, fried zuccini with ranch, coffee, ate about half the meal, carl's jr.

Snacked = crackers, some chips 2 ice cream cups, orange soda, some candy taffy and a few starburst

L = large kaiser roll, 2 individual brie cheeses

D= 2-3 slices pizza, a few bites of pasta, roasted vegetables, some flank steak with bbq sauce and a few slices bbq chicken breast

alc
no walk

215.8. which is surprising considering the way I ate yesterday:

B = 16oz. fresh squeezed oj, 2 small bags of chips, one fritos and one cheetos

L = one rocky road candy bar, some purple taffy, 3/4 of a cheeseburger, some fries with kechup, ice tea unsweetened

S = two slices pizza

D = fried chicken breast, mashed potatoes and gravy, green beans, salad with ranch, dinner roll (didn't finish the whole thing)

I think that is it

alcohol
no walk

Yesterday 218.8 today 217.6. I have been stress eating and not walking. Today I go back to three meals a day. Work stress has been driving stress eating. Yesterday:

B = frozen meal noodles, some soup, ice cream cup, kaiser roll with cheese, oj

L = cafeteria lunch turkey and gravy, mashed potatoes, salad with ranch, milk

S = candy bar, burger fries, ketchup strawberry shake, didn't finish it all

S = cheese and crackers

probably snacked some more. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

215.

B = none

L = cheeseburger, fries, ketchup, iced tea, didn't finish all

D = picked: slice of cheese, wine, few spoons soup, small piece of cake with blueberry sauce and whipped cream, small bite of candy bar, bread and butter, i think thats it

no walk
alc

215.0

B = lasagna, slice of bread with butter, oj

L = 2 cups homemade bean and vege soup, slice of bread with butter

S = twizzlers, chips, corn nuts, didn't finish all, stress eating

D = cake, blueberry sauce, whipped cream, I don't think anything else

no walk
alc

216.6 I have been snacking too much:

B = breakfast skillet with potatoes, peppers, tomato, cheese, mushroom, onion, 2 eggs over medium, one english muffin with butter, didn't finish all the food, coffee black, water

S = 1/2 a large muffin, light blueberry yogurt

L = few bite hot dog, 1/2 a cheese quesadilla, coke

D = 2 ice cream sandwiches, chips and dip, pasta with alfredo sauce and few bites veal chop and some seafood, salad with italian, bread with olive oil and vinegar

wow that was a lot of food

no walk
alc

214.4

ugh 217

I know I have been stress eating, I am just so tired of bouncing around in the 200 teens range. I want to go down! I know I can do it. I just need to focus, stop snacking and stress eating, and start walking the dog again. Not piddly walk to the park, but with summer vacation I need to start doing the 4 mile loop again. Work and home have been stressful, today I totally stress ate:

B = most of a big slice of cinnamon coffee cake from starbucks, iced 2% milk, chex mix, corn nuts, hot chocolate with whipped cream, red licorice

S = more chex mix, corn nuts, licorice

L = cheese quesadilla with avocado and salsa, didn't finish all

S = more chex mix, corn nuts, and licorice, finally gave to my students so I wouldn't keep eating them, popcorn

D = wine, and probably more food, a shot day, tomorrow must be better

ugh

215.8. I'm stuck. And i know why

215.2

Did a lot of cooking today.

B = none

L = 2 cheese sandwiches

S = pistachios and mms

D = 3 homemade crepes

alc
no walk

213.2

I am blaming dehydration, but I hope this trend continues. Have been walking the dog, maybe that is helping. Off of work now, so less stress.

211.4 Been throwing up last few days, haven't kept food down. today kept everything down

B = 2 slices left over pizza

S = small amount of cotton candy, slice of cheese, one cracker, lemonade

L = frozen meal: frozen mushroom ravioli and mushroom sauce

D = homemade buttered popcorn

no walk
alc.

209.4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Walked 4 miles, then went to the Santa Monica Pier and walked around a lot
Had only two drinks in the evening
Lots of water, no soda etc.

B = 3/4 of a chicken sandwich: bun, chicken, avocado, lettuce, tomato, mayo, onion

L = 3/4 of a Costco hot dog

S = cube of rice krispy treat

D = el pollo loco: chicken breast, some wing, some coleslaw, some potato and gravy, tortilla flour, salsa red and green

I think that is it

No that wasn't it: had a 2oz. bag of bbq pot chips too

let's see if I can continue this trend

210.6 as soon as i eat too much and snack it shows

208.8 this morning. yesterday no walk. alc

B = eggs with cheese, potatoes, fruit, ketchup, 3 glasses watered down oj, coffee

L = chips and salsa, drinks, pumpkin and sesame seeds, pistachios, a little chocolate

D = out at restaurant, but upset stomach when got home, so lost some of dinner

this morning, fell during morning walk, but got up and kept going, scraped up

209.2 walked this morning but ate too much yesterday. Yesterday, while walking, I tripped and fell. A little banged up today, but still walked.

Sorry to hear you bashed yourself, but well done on getting the walk done.

209.4

no walk today, slept in.

207.2 it is so close I can almost touch it

208.8

I ate too much on Father's Day Sunday:

B = orange juice, guacamole, salsa, chips, slice of birthday cake

L = pierogi fried, too many, bread and olive oil

D = cheese, salami, pickles, nuts, more orange juice, I don't remember what else

alc
short walk

209.2 I ate too much yesterday

B = brc burrito

L = restaurant

D = 3 tacos, oj, nuts and seeds

S= ice cream sundae and some other things im sure

walk 4 miles
alc

onward and upward

Oh and let's not forget the pastries I got into yesterday

207.4

B = orange juice, a biscuit

L = two tacos, wine, chips and salsa

D = not proud: 4 biscuits, cheese, pickles, ice cream and whip cream

I am no longer allowed to bake biscuits and leave them laying around the house

walk 4 miles
alc

209. something

yesterday was my birthday, so it was an S day

still maintaining and have only done one small walk in the last 3 days. its so hot that I have to get up really early to walk, and Im on vacation so I have been sleeping in. i really want to do this, push forward and not maintain. Was discouraged yesterday, had a picture taken of me and still look fat. even though i've lost 50 pounds, i still have a ways to go, so..............have to push forward and remind myself that this is a very neverending journey that takes the patience of a saint

209.2 I have been slaking off on eating and walking.

209.6 ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. this is maddening!

208.4

206.6! I am so close to being under 200 pounds. To many this is not a big deal. But to me, it is a huge milestone. I know I am far from goal still, but I am moving towards it. And in this weight loss game, that is important. My eating was not good yesterday, but portions were small

B = 2 plums, soup bowl of mac and cheese

L = 4 crackers and cheese, 1/2 and ham and cheese croissant

D = slice of coconut cream pie and some potato chips, I think that was it

still have to cut way down on the junk, but im inching in the right direction

205.6 - 206.4 -then back to 205.6

my eating hasn't been grand, and no walking because of extreme heat, but i'm still going

B = none, was a nervous wreck over personal matters

L = 3 pieces fried mozzerella with marinara sauce, salad with balsamic vinigrette, some rosemary bread dipped in olive oil, drinks, one hard candy

D = Lost it, shared a bag of chex mix, had an ice cream drumbstick, 1/2 a candy bar, I think that is it. not good, but moving forward

208

Sigh

this is maddening!

I LOVE summer fruit! Nectarines, cherries, plums, peaches, can't get enough of them.

207.8

I'm hovering again.

wasn't best 4rth of july eating, but not the worst

209.4

I am so frustrated right now. I know i haven't been walking. It is so hot lately, that if you don't walk at 6 am forget it. Eating hasn't been great. I am just mad at myself and so sick and tired of struggling with weight. Plus I have to go to the doctor this week, and I hate hate going to the the doctor. I get complete anxiety and my blood pressure sky rockets. This vacation is sucking right now.

I had a smoothie for breakfast that left me incredibly full

1 cup frozen wild blueberries
1 banana
handful of raw spinach
handful of raw broccoli
water and or pomegranate juice
blend


for lunch I am making homemade lentil soup:

saute 1 large chopped onion in olive oil along with chopped celery and carrots. add cumin, dried ginger powder, salt and pepper, bay leaf, red pepper flakes or you could do oregano and thyme. add small red lentils and water. add fresh puree of tomatoes. two heads fresh garlic minced. simmer for 35 minutes or until lentils are soft. at the end add a bag of organic baby spinach and fresh chopped parsley, simmer very shortly. you can serve with noodles and parmesan cheese. or bread and butter or a sandwich. you can use chicken stock, it will taste heartier, but in the summer I make it with water.

and a tasty tuna salad:

3 cans tuna packed in water drained
chopped onion
chopped celery
2 hard boiled eggs chopped
mustard
mayo
salt and pepper
2 chopped pickles and a splash of pickle juice
you can add a chopped apple
fresh chopped parsley opt.
really good quality whole grain bread, Trader Joe's has a great one with literally these ingredients: flour, yeast, salt. period.



tomato and cucumber salad

sliced tomatoes lying flat on a plate
topped with sliced persian cucumbers
minced scallions or red onion on top
you can add slices of avocado, but don't have to
salt and pepper to taste
drizzle with olive oil and red wine vinegar

so good with grilled steak, chicken, fish, etc. or on bread and butter as a sandwich

209 this morning.

surprising. I started the day off right. good breakfast. lunch was fine. then snacked in the evening.

209.6. yesterday was a really bad eating day. but I am not giving up. today is a new day, thank goodness to second and millionth chances

212. yesterday was really rough. 4 hour anxiety attack at the doctors. Lectures. Followed by a day of horrible eating, snacking, and candy. feeling down.

211.2

211

210.4 and I am surprised because I ate like a pig yesterday.

B = several bites pastries, sub sandwich 6 inch, fresh squeezed oj

L = yogurt, candy =(, flank steak salad with avocado, lettuce, onions, lettuce, tomatoes, dressing, 2 cheese enchiladas, didn't eat it all, a few chips and salsa, beer

D = 21/2 slices of pizza, 2 cups of soup (potato cheese and vegetable), few bites cornbread with butter, I think that's

threw up

short walk
alc

211

210.6

210.2

211.4

B = none

L = 1 peach, bowl of homemade lentil vegetable soup, large kaiser roll with cheese

D = tba

alc.
short walk

210. good. going in the right direction

B = peach

L = bowl of homemade lentil and vegetable soup, large kaiser roll with several slices of cheese

S = two cinnamon cookies with whipped cream, i think a cracker with cheese =(

D = two ground beef tacos with hot sauce, drinks. I think that is it

short walk
alc

SW: 268.5 was my highest
CW: 210

I have to remind myself that I have lost 58 pounds. I still have a long way to go. I'm 5'5" and should be around 150 at the highest. But I'm getting there. I can do this. I will not be derailed!

209.8 How I did that i don't know. I emotional ate like crazy yesterday

209.8

I know i am emotionally eating and snacking and not sticking to one plate. Mad at myself at this point. been walking 4 miles a day and I am maintaining - it is getting frustrating

210.2
Wins for an S day Saturday:

walked 4 miles

I just love your honesty....and watching your journey!!

You have come sooo far!! One foot in front of the other. I'm taking that from you!!

209.6 I will take I will take it!

I had a wild S day yesterday. So I am happy I didn't gain

Thank you for the positive words. I really need them.

209.8

ugh

it is really hard to be motivated to walk 4 miles when I'm not losing. been walking 4 miles a day and i'm staying in place. I know I ate too much at dinner but breakfast and lunch were good. very very frustrated right now

B = 4 mile walk, 2 slices white bread with butter and tomatoes

L = brow rice, chicken, veges

D = drinks, 2 tacos, 1/2 of a brc burrito, salsa

b = apple juice, 1 slice bread with cheese, one thick slice salami, peach and strawberries

l = 2 bowls homemade minestrone soup

d = tba

walk short
no alc

one step at a time. I'm very frustrated right no, hovering at 209.8, i know frustration doesn't get me anywhere, but I can't help it

ok yesterday was UGLY. 212.2 started out good. felt hunger and stress after 3 pm and majorly binged

B = fine

L = fine

D = drinks, bbq chicken, steak lots of bbq sauce, salad, cheese, crackers, baked potato with everything, , chocolate bar, bread, cinnamon roll, the list goes on

this was stress eating at its finest. i know it was stress triggered and I went way overboard. but its is a set back not a ultimate fail.

one lady on WW wrote:

before WW I would go overboard at a bbq:
2 cheeseburgers, a hot dog, potato salad, mac salad, bbq beans, 2 deviled eggs, chips

now I have:
1 cheeseburger or 1 hot dog
small amount of potato and macaroni salad
bbq beans and on deviled egg

ah! that sounds like one plate. Even though she does WW, her post weight loss plate looks like NoS.

I can do this

I think part of my problem is I am getting into my head and not eating enough at meal times, then the stretch to dinner is brutal. Also, it is ok to feel hunger pains, you don't have to eat the second you feel hunger

walked 4 miles
no alc

B = large bowl of homemade soup, chunk of french bread with butter, slice of banana cream pie

L = 2 squares caramel filled chocolate, 4 crackers with cheese, peach

D = tba