Graham's Daily Check In
Moderators: Soprano, automatedeating
12st 6 3/4lb, 42 3/4", BMI 27, WHtR 63.3%, Body Fat 37% #
At the end, not hungry but tired. Cat intervention prevented me sleeping through. Was that for the best? I ate a largish meal, slept fitfully.
Was it No S compliant? I think I could've put it all on one embarrassingly highly stacked plate - but that's the point isn't it: if I didn't embarrass myself, I'm thwarting the visual feedback, so I guess it was a No S # What would be a better label? FAULT? SIN? ERROR? MISS? I see what is wrong here, where's the element of defiance, of rebellion?
No singing practice yesterday, I think I overdid it Thursday. I did deliberately get a full hour's aerobic exercise by taking a walk, and did an isometric workout too - Today a full rehearsal, 10 to 5.
I notice I've been reducing the fried component of my diet. I've been suffering digestive upsets and trying to isolate and remove causal factors. i've been frying with rapeseed oil mostly, and wondering if that wasn't agreeing with me. I've switched to grilling such things as sausages, and if i have mushrooms and onions to go with them, I slice them as usual, add a little butter and water and cook them like that. Not quite the same, is it more digestible? Is the oil the problem, or cooked oil? Or?
Internet detour: Leslie Kenton, just checked is she still into the raw foods, beauty etc. - and yes, she seems to be. I haven't the patience to wade through all the waffle she produces. I only checked because she is energetic every day - and I am not. Will I ever try that raw food route? It sounds so unappealing, so sad. When mother made salad for a meal I always felt cheated - where was the FOOD? I like salads now (discovering vinaigrette and garlic in Provence transformed my view of salads forever!) but I don't eat raw all day, and I still could try that.
At the end, not hungry but tired. Cat intervention prevented me sleeping through. Was that for the best? I ate a largish meal, slept fitfully.
Was it No S compliant? I think I could've put it all on one embarrassingly highly stacked plate - but that's the point isn't it: if I didn't embarrass myself, I'm thwarting the visual feedback, so I guess it was a No S # What would be a better label? FAULT? SIN? ERROR? MISS? I see what is wrong here, where's the element of defiance, of rebellion?
No singing practice yesterday, I think I overdid it Thursday. I did deliberately get a full hour's aerobic exercise by taking a walk, and did an isometric workout too - Today a full rehearsal, 10 to 5.
I notice I've been reducing the fried component of my diet. I've been suffering digestive upsets and trying to isolate and remove causal factors. i've been frying with rapeseed oil mostly, and wondering if that wasn't agreeing with me. I've switched to grilling such things as sausages, and if i have mushrooms and onions to go with them, I slice them as usual, add a little butter and water and cook them like that. Not quite the same, is it more digestible? Is the oil the problem, or cooked oil? Or?
Internet detour: Leslie Kenton, just checked is she still into the raw foods, beauty etc. - and yes, she seems to be. I haven't the patience to wade through all the waffle she produces. I only checked because she is energetic every day - and I am not. Will I ever try that raw food route? It sounds so unappealing, so sad. When mother made salad for a meal I always felt cheated - where was the FOOD? I like salads now (discovering vinaigrette and garlic in Provence transformed my view of salads forever!) but I don't eat raw all day, and I still could try that.
12st 6lb, 42 7/8", BMI 26.9, WHtR 63.5%, Body Fat 37.5% #
I had an easy time of it, the fast felt relatively effortless. The meal was one plate, but the rice I ate had arrived late, so I won't give myself a green. But, a meal of similar size to my usual fast-breaker. I did feel tired by the end of the day, it had cost me something in effort and time - and I am FATTER! And lost Nothing!
I am perplexed and disappointed. What more could I have done?
I had an easy time of it, the fast felt relatively effortless. The meal was one plate, but the rice I ate had arrived late, so I won't give myself a green. But, a meal of similar size to my usual fast-breaker. I did feel tired by the end of the day, it had cost me something in effort and time - and I am FATTER! And lost Nothing!
I am perplexed and disappointed. What more could I have done?
12st 4 3/4lb, 42 1/2", BMI 26.7, WHtR 63%, Body Fat 36.9% #
Is this the fasting pay-off delayed by a day? Modest eating but CHOCOLATES were my No S undoing. Arrived late at Southport, having driven 4 hours non-stop no breaks, ate a sandwich (too lazy to cook) then watched tv & hit the chocs. Overall moderate consumption, I have to think what to do with the chocolates, when they're gone, I won't be buying any to replace them.
Is this the fasting pay-off delayed by a day? Modest eating but CHOCOLATES were my No S undoing. Arrived late at Southport, having driven 4 hours non-stop no breaks, ate a sandwich (too lazy to cook) then watched tv & hit the chocs. Overall moderate consumption, I have to think what to do with the chocolates, when they're gone, I won't be buying any to replace them.
12st 6 1/4lb, 43 1/2" BMI 27, WHtR 64.4%, Body Fat 38.9% #
I've been bingeing on Dad's chocolate stash. Must I eat them all? Amazing how quickly I'm getting fat. I can't seem to stop eating them after my evening meal. I can't imagine how I'll stop, I won't buy more after they're gone, but I may get cravings and what'll I do then? I don't like fighting cravings.
I didn't fast yesterday, had stuff to do and thought fasting fatigue would discourage me. Probably the right decision but overall trends are troubling. On the good side, I am getting lots of portions of fruit and vegetables and my energy level is up. I'm practising my singing and focusing regularly, but there's an overall discomfort, I've yet to find balance here.
I've been bingeing on Dad's chocolate stash. Must I eat them all? Amazing how quickly I'm getting fat. I can't seem to stop eating them after my evening meal. I can't imagine how I'll stop, I won't buy more after they're gone, but I may get cravings and what'll I do then? I don't like fighting cravings.
I didn't fast yesterday, had stuff to do and thought fasting fatigue would discourage me. Probably the right decision but overall trends are troubling. On the good side, I am getting lots of portions of fruit and vegetables and my energy level is up. I'm practising my singing and focusing regularly, but there's an overall discomfort, I've yet to find balance here.
12st 6lb, 43 1/4", BMI 26.9, WHtR 64.1%, Body Fat 38.4%
Strange to see these figures after yesterday's "exemplary" behaviour (well, almost). I had NO CHOCOLATES! Not one!. And today I feel glad of it, to be free of the lingering queasy awareness of those flavoured clumps of fat and sugar.
I ate well - I snacked on an avocado and an apple before I went shopping. I bought one of those "health grills" and then had grilled sausage, onion and tomato with buttered potato cakes for brunch. Many hours later, my evening meal was lettuce and carrot salad with grilled pork chop and tomatoes, followed by cheese, biscuits and a glass of beer. I'm not actually aiming for a low fat effect, it's more that I've been getting indigestion frequently and have suspected foods fried in oil of being a problem.
Actually oil's not the only suspect: strong coffee, mustard, spices, excess vinegar all seem to provoke indigestion. Also the simple physical issue of an over-tight waistband pressing in to my growing girth, and being upset. Sometimes just forgetting to drink plain water instead of teas and coffees.
Boring or what? Earlier in life my stomach accepted whatever I gave it without demur: now it insists on gentleness and respect.
Once again, I'm expecting to be busy today and have decided a fast would be too depleting, though I see the need and value of it, and so enjoy the break from eating, plus the pleasure of the fast-breaking meal. And, yes, I do wonder if fasting might also contribute to my stomach's current sensitivity.
Strange to see these figures after yesterday's "exemplary" behaviour (well, almost). I had NO CHOCOLATES! Not one!. And today I feel glad of it, to be free of the lingering queasy awareness of those flavoured clumps of fat and sugar.
I ate well - I snacked on an avocado and an apple before I went shopping. I bought one of those "health grills" and then had grilled sausage, onion and tomato with buttered potato cakes for brunch. Many hours later, my evening meal was lettuce and carrot salad with grilled pork chop and tomatoes, followed by cheese, biscuits and a glass of beer. I'm not actually aiming for a low fat effect, it's more that I've been getting indigestion frequently and have suspected foods fried in oil of being a problem.
Actually oil's not the only suspect: strong coffee, mustard, spices, excess vinegar all seem to provoke indigestion. Also the simple physical issue of an over-tight waistband pressing in to my growing girth, and being upset. Sometimes just forgetting to drink plain water instead of teas and coffees.
Boring or what? Earlier in life my stomach accepted whatever I gave it without demur: now it insists on gentleness and respect.
Once again, I'm expecting to be busy today and have decided a fast would be too depleting, though I see the need and value of it, and so enjoy the break from eating, plus the pleasure of the fast-breaking meal. And, yes, I do wonder if fasting might also contribute to my stomach's current sensitivity.
12st 5lb, 42 3/4", BMI 26.8, WHtR 63.3%, Body Fat 37.5%, #
My last meal was a little untidy, I didn't wait till the veg were cooked before I started eating the lamb chops. It was what I planned to eat, and would have fitted on the plate in one go if I'd been less hungry, I could technically fail myself but that would be pointlessly harsh. Overall a good day's eating: no sweets, no snacks and no seconds in the true sense of the word. And got my 5-a-day.
Today the sky is blue, and I have a new bike to ride.
My last meal was a little untidy, I didn't wait till the veg were cooked before I started eating the lamb chops. It was what I planned to eat, and would have fitted on the plate in one go if I'd been less hungry, I could technically fail myself but that would be pointlessly harsh. Overall a good day's eating: no sweets, no snacks and no seconds in the true sense of the word. And got my 5-a-day.
Today the sky is blue, and I have a new bike to ride.
12st 5lb, 42 3/8" BMI 26.8, WHtR 62.8%, Body Fat 36.8% #
I didn't snack, but I did drink most of a can of condensed milk, I think condensed milk and grilled salmon don't go well together, I presume that is why I woke in such discomfort around 3am.
Stomach still sore and I've got busy days ahead, so I reluctantly decided not to fast today. I spent a long time on my new bike yesterday. It needs adjusting if not repairing before I use it much more, it makes a horrid creak with every turn of the pedals - only I'm supposed to be going out this evening and I don't know how I'll manage if I don't ride it.
I didn't snack, but I did drink most of a can of condensed milk, I think condensed milk and grilled salmon don't go well together, I presume that is why I woke in such discomfort around 3am.
Stomach still sore and I've got busy days ahead, so I reluctantly decided not to fast today. I spent a long time on my new bike yesterday. It needs adjusting if not repairing before I use it much more, it makes a horrid creak with every turn of the pedals - only I'm supposed to be going out this evening and I don't know how I'll manage if I don't ride it.
12st 4 1/2lb, 42 5/8", BMI 26.7, WHtR 63.1%, Body Fat 37.3% #
I didn't snack or eat sweets, but my final meal was 2 plates: I made 2 pieces of cheese on toast, then decided I wanted 2 more. It would not have been easy to do otherwise - my toaster only takes 2 slices at a time. Iit would have been less appealing to delay eating, the first two slices cooling as the second two cooked. So that's a RED day then.
I didn't snack or eat sweets, but my final meal was 2 plates: I made 2 pieces of cheese on toast, then decided I wanted 2 more. It would not have been easy to do otherwise - my toaster only takes 2 slices at a time. Iit would have been less appealing to delay eating, the first two slices cooling as the second two cooked. So that's a RED day then.
12st 7lb, 42 5/8" BMI 27.1, WHtR 63.1%, Body Fat 36.6%
An unexpected weight gain. Rice? chocolate bar? Otherwise a day of sound eating. Choir rehearsal felt pressured, wondering about my voice, how it gets used - the line between demand that fosters growth, or leads to strain - where is that, and who is taking care of it?
An unexpected weight gain. Rice? chocolate bar? Otherwise a day of sound eating. Choir rehearsal felt pressured, wondering about my voice, how it gets used - the line between demand that fosters growth, or leads to strain - where is that, and who is taking care of it?
What happened to yesterday's entry here? ? This from memory:
Monday 12st 9lb, 42 1/2" BMI 27.4, WHtR 63%, Body Fat 35.8%,
plus reflection on whether the scale could be trusted (old mechanical scale said 12st 3lb) and that I was fasting.
today; 12st 6 1/2lb, 43", BMI 27, WHtR 63.7%, Body Fat 37.7%,#
Strangely difficult fast: stomach virtually unnoticed - but a distracting headache arrived by late afternoon and grew from there. Got rather tired too, had a long nap. Might have slept till today but had things to do. Managed not to snack! Part of that was not staying up late to watch a film, let myself sleep.
Monday 12st 9lb, 42 1/2" BMI 27.4, WHtR 63%, Body Fat 35.8%,
plus reflection on whether the scale could be trusted (old mechanical scale said 12st 3lb) and that I was fasting.
today; 12st 6 1/2lb, 43", BMI 27, WHtR 63.7%, Body Fat 37.7%,#
Strangely difficult fast: stomach virtually unnoticed - but a distracting headache arrived by late afternoon and grew from there. Got rather tired too, had a long nap. Might have slept till today but had things to do. Managed not to snack! Part of that was not staying up late to watch a film, let myself sleep.
12st 7 3/4.b, 42 3/4", BMI 27.2, WHtR 63.3%, Body Fat 36.7%, # Fasting
Invited late to a birthday meal, went, buffet-style meal, many plates, I declare an S day. I am too fat to enjoy feasting at the moment. I don't want to seem anti-social but feasting isn't right for me just now.
Tomorrow will be a big day - the choir's summer concert. I need to rehearse today, I need to fast too, it feels like a survival issue, bigger than a big day.
Invited late to a birthday meal, went, buffet-style meal, many plates, I declare an S day. I am too fat to enjoy feasting at the moment. I don't want to seem anti-social but feasting isn't right for me just now.
Tomorrow will be a big day - the choir's summer concert. I need to rehearse today, I need to fast too, it feels like a survival issue, bigger than a big day.
12st 6 3/4lb, 42 7/8", BMI 27, WHtR 63.5%, Body Fat 37.3% Fasting
Concert on Saturday went quite well, I'm told. Sunday a garden party, today fasting.
1:41am (Tues morn) What have I learned? This fast and the last one, a bit hard, but then got easy, full-strength coffee with sweeteners helped. Then, the fast-ending meal, for the second time: chickpea curry with rice. One big plate and no sense that I needed more.
If it is easy is it because I was a) stuffed from Sunday's excesses and b) not really having much effect on weight or waist? Let the coming days answer that.
Concert on Saturday went quite well, I'm told. Sunday a garden party, today fasting.
1:41am (Tues morn) What have I learned? This fast and the last one, a bit hard, but then got easy, full-strength coffee with sweeteners helped. Then, the fast-ending meal, for the second time: chickpea curry with rice. One big plate and no sense that I needed more.
If it is easy is it because I was a) stuffed from Sunday's excesses and b) not really having much effect on weight or waist? Let the coming days answer that.
12st 5 1/4lb, 42 5/8", BMI 26.8, WHtR 63.1%, Body Fat 37.1% #
A relatively easy fast. The meal was successful as a fast-ender, as a No S complier - but woeful as a 5-a-dayer. If I'd gone for my usual chicken/pineapple/onion/sweet potato/broccoli/mushroom combo, possibly with buttered bread, would I have felt equally satisfied and content? Was it the rice that satisfied, or was it the sequel to eating such a lot on Sunday?
Can I find the answer to that question?
A relatively easy fast. The meal was successful as a fast-ender, as a No S complier - but woeful as a 5-a-dayer. If I'd gone for my usual chicken/pineapple/onion/sweet potato/broccoli/mushroom combo, possibly with buttered bread, would I have felt equally satisfied and content? Was it the rice that satisfied, or was it the sequel to eating such a lot on Sunday?
Can I find the answer to that question?
12st 5 1/2lb, 42 5/8" BMI 26.8, WHtR 63.1%, Body Fat 37% Fasting
So - fasting again after just one day's rest. It didn't spoil my S day, but I'm not sure how effective a fast is if it is followed directly by unlimited eating. As I wasn't able to weigh or measure myself on Sunday I can't say conclusively.
Over the last month I did only 5 out of the 9 possible fasts, and had 3 "special occasion" blow-outs. I am roughly the same waist and weight as I was a month ago. There was a brief, scary peak, and some times when I weighed a little less, but mostly I've been around where I am now.
So - fasting again after just one day's rest. It didn't spoil my S day, but I'm not sure how effective a fast is if it is followed directly by unlimited eating. As I wasn't able to weigh or measure myself on Sunday I can't say conclusively.
Over the last month I did only 5 out of the 9 possible fasts, and had 3 "special occasion" blow-outs. I am roughly the same waist and weight as I was a month ago. There was a brief, scary peak, and some times when I weighed a little less, but mostly I've been around where I am now.
12st 5 1/2lb, 42 1/2", BMI 26.8, WHtR 63%, Body Fat 36.7%, #
The fast wasn't particularly difficult, but my energy was low and I was pretty unproductive. The fast ending meal once again was chickpea curry with rice, very filling and no sense of needing more afterwards, even hours afterwards. But, overall, the effect is so slight. 1/8" off my waist. I didn't do any exercise of note. Next fast will probably end with a lower-carb meal, though I'll be hoping it is just as satisfying -otherwise I'll see very little reward for my efforts.
Today: tango biscuit challenge followed by choir biscuit, beer and crisp challenge. This body guards its fat so well, I think it is better at it than it was a year or two ago. I have the delightful combination now of a thin, aged face, and swelling middle - hideous! What cruel prank is this?
Worst of it is this though: I don't have a handle on the problem. My body's headed somewhere I don't want it to go, and I'm running out of tolerable ways to halt and reverse that. I have ethical, aesthetic and ecological issues with low-carb, could I bear to explore increased % of raw food? That's what my skinniest friends eat most.
The fast wasn't particularly difficult, but my energy was low and I was pretty unproductive. The fast ending meal once again was chickpea curry with rice, very filling and no sense of needing more afterwards, even hours afterwards. But, overall, the effect is so slight. 1/8" off my waist. I didn't do any exercise of note. Next fast will probably end with a lower-carb meal, though I'll be hoping it is just as satisfying -otherwise I'll see very little reward for my efforts.
Today: tango biscuit challenge followed by choir biscuit, beer and crisp challenge. This body guards its fat so well, I think it is better at it than it was a year or two ago. I have the delightful combination now of a thin, aged face, and swelling middle - hideous! What cruel prank is this?
Worst of it is this though: I don't have a handle on the problem. My body's headed somewhere I don't want it to go, and I'm running out of tolerable ways to halt and reverse that. I have ethical, aesthetic and ecological issues with low-carb, could I bear to explore increased % of raw food? That's what my skinniest friends eat most.
12st 5 1/2lb, 42 7/16", BMI 26.8, WHtR 62.9%, Body Fat 36.6% Fasting
I had it in mind to emphasise exercise rather than fasting but today's weight and a brief mention of studies on the benefits of IF tipped the balance today. I have this firmly in mind: to take a 1-hour bike ride while I have the energy and willingness to do it.
I had it in mind to emphasise exercise rather than fasting but today's weight and a brief mention of studies on the benefits of IF tipped the balance today. I have this firmly in mind: to take a 1-hour bike ride while I have the energy and willingness to do it.
12st 5 3/4lb, 42 9/16", BMI 26.9, WHtR 63.1%, Body Fat 36.8% #
A bearable fast, ended by a well thought-out meal: salmon with 5 veg and a piece of toast. It wasn't as enjoyable as my chickpea curry though - must make some more of that.. Anyway, how does it happen that I'm now heavier and fatter than yesterday? Was that one meal more calorific than a normal day's eating?
I'm not sorry that I fasted, I felt I should, a sort of relief comes with the interruption of eating, and the meal? The hunk of salmon was large (@ 7 oz), the vegetables were plentiful: broccoli, sweetcorn, sweet potato, mushroom, onion - the last two fried in coconut oil with the salmon. I didn't like how I felt after the meal though - post chickpea curry feels better, though it doesn't tick the 5-a-day boxes.
I feel OK otherwise - save for staying up too late last night. Is it an issue that I ate at 9, whereas I've usually finished fasts around 6pm recently? Is that giving a falsely high weight/waist this morning? In that case, tomorrow's measurements will show the truth if I can negotiate tonight's choir/pub hurdle successfully.
A bearable fast, ended by a well thought-out meal: salmon with 5 veg and a piece of toast. It wasn't as enjoyable as my chickpea curry though - must make some more of that.. Anyway, how does it happen that I'm now heavier and fatter than yesterday? Was that one meal more calorific than a normal day's eating?
I'm not sorry that I fasted, I felt I should, a sort of relief comes with the interruption of eating, and the meal? The hunk of salmon was large (@ 7 oz), the vegetables were plentiful: broccoli, sweetcorn, sweet potato, mushroom, onion - the last two fried in coconut oil with the salmon. I didn't like how I felt after the meal though - post chickpea curry feels better, though it doesn't tick the 5-a-day boxes.
I feel OK otherwise - save for staying up too late last night. Is it an issue that I ate at 9, whereas I've usually finished fasts around 6pm recently? Is that giving a falsely high weight/waist this morning? In that case, tomorrow's measurements will show the truth if I can negotiate tonight's choir/pub hurdle successfully.
12st 6 1/2lb, 42 5/8", BMI 27, WHtR 63.1%, Body Fat 36.8%, #
I note weight and waist virtually unchanged in the last month and a half. I can tell myself I'd probably be fatter and heavier if I'd not fasted as frequently as I managed to, but this is hard. The fasting itself is manageable, but my physical and emotional capacities are reduced and I get less done.
I wouldn't do major stuff on fasting days, and I seem to need 2 regular fasting days out of every 7 to halt and reverse the inexorable accumulation of body fat, especially visceral fat.
I have to hold in check my detestation of my condition and appearance, and my desperation over this lack of progress. I acknowledge some fear over the effect of eating little enough to ensure long-term steady weight-loss, particularly on my immune system. I seem caught between two lethal forces.
I hesitate to do low-carb again too, I feel no spark of enthusiasm for revisiting that. Or get back on the rower? How long per day to make an impact? Hmm.
I note weight and waist virtually unchanged in the last month and a half. I can tell myself I'd probably be fatter and heavier if I'd not fasted as frequently as I managed to, but this is hard. The fasting itself is manageable, but my physical and emotional capacities are reduced and I get less done.
I wouldn't do major stuff on fasting days, and I seem to need 2 regular fasting days out of every 7 to halt and reverse the inexorable accumulation of body fat, especially visceral fat.
I have to hold in check my detestation of my condition and appearance, and my desperation over this lack of progress. I acknowledge some fear over the effect of eating little enough to ensure long-term steady weight-loss, particularly on my immune system. I seem caught between two lethal forces.
I hesitate to do low-carb again too, I feel no spark of enthusiasm for revisiting that. Or get back on the rower? How long per day to make an impact? Hmm.
12st 8 1/2lb, 42 5/8", BMI 27.3, WHtR 63.1%, Body Fat 36.3% #
Bit shocked by the weight. I actually thought I'd managed choir rather well: I ate a good late lunch which meant, I believe, that I coped with the pub and later fraternising much better. I did have some pizza, but not greedily - and yet, look at the numbers!
No Tuesday choir till September, just church choir to address till August break. A chance to get on top of things?
Bit shocked by the weight. I actually thought I'd managed choir rather well: I ate a good late lunch which meant, I believe, that I coped with the pub and later fraternising much better. I did have some pizza, but not greedily - and yet, look at the numbers!
No Tuesday choir till September, just church choir to address till August break. A chance to get on top of things?
12st 7lb, 42 5/8", BMI 27.1, WHtR 63.5%, Body Fat 37.2%
Sunday wasn't great, food-wise, though an improvement on Saturday. I had a chocolate binge - or nearly. I saved the day with salad, followed by grilled chicken and onion.
Today I didn't fast, despite the scale's reproof. A sense of the need to be active persuaded me to eat well, and I have spent several hours out of doors, including over an hour's cycling. Not bad, let the tape measure and scales deliver their verdict tomorrow.
Sunday wasn't great, food-wise, though an improvement on Saturday. I had a chocolate binge - or nearly. I saved the day with salad, followed by grilled chicken and onion.
Today I didn't fast, despite the scale's reproof. A sense of the need to be active persuaded me to eat well, and I have spent several hours out of doors, including over an hour's cycling. Not bad, let the tape measure and scales deliver their verdict tomorrow.
12st 7 3/4lb, 43", BMI 27.2, WHtR 63.7%, Body Fat 37.3% #
Stability of sorts. I tried eating 3 meals as an anti-chocolate strategy, but it was no use. Now back to London, so I'll not fast today. Fasting seems to be the only strategy, dispiriting and depleting though it may be, that checks the ballooning of my gut.
Having little love for my body doesn't make things any easier. Though I dislike myself fat, I also dislike the picture I conjure of myself slim - I somehow see myself looking diminished, no wonder I'm conflicted. If I don't find my way to accept or even love my body, I'll struggle to reverse corpulence.
Stability of sorts. I tried eating 3 meals as an anti-chocolate strategy, but it was no use. Now back to London, so I'll not fast today. Fasting seems to be the only strategy, dispiriting and depleting though it may be, that checks the ballooning of my gut.
Having little love for my body doesn't make things any easier. Though I dislike myself fat, I also dislike the picture I conjure of myself slim - I somehow see myself looking diminished, no wonder I'm conflicted. If I don't find my way to accept or even love my body, I'll struggle to reverse corpulence.
12st 7 1/2lb, 42 3/3", BMI 27.1, WHtR 63.3%, Body Fat 36.8%, #
Not what I'd hope for from a fast, unless I assume I would have gained weight yesterday if I hadn't fasted.
The stewed minced beef with onion, carrots and tomato, plus my new item - grilled chips, and buttered toast, was over one plate. Partly technical - my electric grill doesn't hold enough chips in one go so a one plate, no seconds meal became impossible.
Not what I'd hope for from a fast, unless I assume I would have gained weight yesterday if I hadn't fasted.
The stewed minced beef with onion, carrots and tomato, plus my new item - grilled chips, and buttered toast, was over one plate. Partly technical - my electric grill doesn't hold enough chips in one go so a one plate, no seconds meal became impossible.
I've had that problem with grill size, too, and with food getting cold while I ate slowly. Now I put the food on the plate before I heat it to get the amount. Then if I need to heat things in stages, I know I'm still eating one plate's worth.
Count plates, not calories. 11 years "during"
Age 69
BMI Jan/10-30.8
1/12-26.8 3/13-24.9 +/- 8-lb. 3 yrs
9/17 22.8 (flux) 3/18 22.2
2 yrs flux 6/20 22
1/21-23
There is no S better than Vanilla No S (mods now as a senior citizen)
Age 69
BMI Jan/10-30.8
1/12-26.8 3/13-24.9 +/- 8-lb. 3 yrs
9/17 22.8 (flux) 3/18 22.2
2 yrs flux 6/20 22
1/21-23
There is no S better than Vanilla No S (mods now as a senior citizen)
Yes, but I doubt you heat stew on a grill. Don't you have to put it in a bowl anyway? I put bowls on the plate, too. I tend to use either dessert-sized ones that leave room for entree, starch, and veggies, or deep ones that still allow room for bread and fruit on my plate, if the soup is a meal soup.
Count plates, not calories. 11 years "during"
Age 69
BMI Jan/10-30.8
1/12-26.8 3/13-24.9 +/- 8-lb. 3 yrs
9/17 22.8 (flux) 3/18 22.2
2 yrs flux 6/20 22
1/21-23
There is no S better than Vanilla No S (mods now as a senior citizen)
Age 69
BMI Jan/10-30.8
1/12-26.8 3/13-24.9 +/- 8-lb. 3 yrs
9/17 22.8 (flux) 3/18 22.2
2 yrs flux 6/20 22
1/21-23
There is no S better than Vanilla No S (mods now as a senior citizen)
I don't see how you thought I meant to cook anything in a bowl. I also use the same cooking methods you do. (No microwave here.)
Count plates, not calories. 11 years "during"
Age 69
BMI Jan/10-30.8
1/12-26.8 3/13-24.9 +/- 8-lb. 3 yrs
9/17 22.8 (flux) 3/18 22.2
2 yrs flux 6/20 22
1/21-23
There is no S better than Vanilla No S (mods now as a senior citizen)
Age 69
BMI Jan/10-30.8
1/12-26.8 3/13-24.9 +/- 8-lb. 3 yrs
9/17 22.8 (flux) 3/18 22.2
2 yrs flux 6/20 22
1/21-23
There is no S better than Vanilla No S (mods now as a senior citizen)
12st 9lb, approximately, now I'm back from Granada.
I got more exercise than I expected; visiting the Alhambra, for example, is 4 hours of walking and many of Granada's most interesting sights are up steep hills.
I have to call it an S week, no way to regulate my eating and drinking in that land of pavement cafés, bars and tapas, coping with all that walking and the unfamiliar heat.
My waistband feels about the same tightness as when I left, so I'm not particularly fatter. If I'd wanted to eat better, I would have needed to live in a self-catering setup: maybe next time?
I got more exercise than I expected; visiting the Alhambra, for example, is 4 hours of walking and many of Granada's most interesting sights are up steep hills.
I have to call it an S week, no way to regulate my eating and drinking in that land of pavement cafés, bars and tapas, coping with all that walking and the unfamiliar heat.
My waistband feels about the same tightness as when I left, so I'm not particularly fatter. If I'd wanted to eat better, I would have needed to live in a self-catering setup: maybe next time?
Last edited by Graham on Tue Oct 02, 2012 12:13 pm, edited 1 time in total.
12st 8 1/4lb, 43 1/8", BMI 27.3, WHtR 63.9%, Body Fat 37.5%
Recovering from a cold that started last Sunday. No serious effort on the food intake front, rest mattered more. First "major" effort yesterday - got lost, mapless, and spent @ 2 hours more cycling than I intended. Later I realised I was suffering a set-back. Onwards and upwards.
I'm a year older. Having a cold limited my ambitions on Friday, so it was a quiet birthday, and the first without a card from my Dad. Much reflection that day, tinged with the gloom colds seem to bring.
Unfinished business on many fronts, liberal use of Focusing is my main asset. I am wondering about when and if I'll get lighter than I am now.
Recovering from a cold that started last Sunday. No serious effort on the food intake front, rest mattered more. First "major" effort yesterday - got lost, mapless, and spent @ 2 hours more cycling than I intended. Later I realised I was suffering a set-back. Onwards and upwards.
I'm a year older. Having a cold limited my ambitions on Friday, so it was a quiet birthday, and the first without a card from my Dad. Much reflection that day, tinged with the gloom colds seem to bring.
Unfinished business on many fronts, liberal use of Focusing is my main asset. I am wondering about when and if I'll get lighter than I am now.
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Hello Graham! I came across your check-in and saw that you had birthday a week ago (too late for birthday wishes, I'd say ).Graham wrote:...I'm a year older. Having a cold limited my ambitions on Friday, so it was a quiet birthday...Unfinished business on many fronts, liberal use of Focusing is my main asset. I am wondering about when and if I'll get lighter than I am now...
Well, my birth's anniversary is in a month, also.
I hope you don't mind my saying hello. Have a wonderful year and much success in whatever endeavours you'll choose to pursue.
To your health and well-being
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Heddi
Hello Heddi, thank you for your greetings
12st 11 3/4lb #
the upward trend continues, barely checked by yesterday's fast, the first in several weeks. It was oddly timed, impromptu, from Thursday breakfast to Friday "breakfast" - but it was more like an evening meal - a lamb chop with several different vegetables and buttered bread.
I was reflecting on the timing of the fast, wondering if it was the best timing, with the later (and least productive?) part of the fast coming during the hours of sleep, but intrusive noise shortening the hours of sleep meant a proper evaluation wasn't possible. (sleep deprived I went round like a zombie for many hours)
The above logical considerations apart, I rather like fasting from evening meal to evening meal because I'd rather skip breakfast and lunch, two humble meals, than skip an evening meal, usually the most enjoyable (and biggest?) of the day. I see this means I probably don't produce as great a calorie deficit as I might.
12st 11 3/4lb #
the upward trend continues, barely checked by yesterday's fast, the first in several weeks. It was oddly timed, impromptu, from Thursday breakfast to Friday "breakfast" - but it was more like an evening meal - a lamb chop with several different vegetables and buttered bread.
I was reflecting on the timing of the fast, wondering if it was the best timing, with the later (and least productive?) part of the fast coming during the hours of sleep, but intrusive noise shortening the hours of sleep meant a proper evaluation wasn't possible. (sleep deprived I went round like a zombie for many hours)
The above logical considerations apart, I rather like fasting from evening meal to evening meal because I'd rather skip breakfast and lunch, two humble meals, than skip an evening meal, usually the most enjoyable (and biggest?) of the day. I see this means I probably don't produce as great a calorie deficit as I might.
12st 10 1/4lb, 43 5/8", BMI 27.6, WHtR 64.6%, Body Fat 38.2% #
Isometrics are proving very helpful at the moment. Not directly impacting my weight but boosting an overall sense of well-being, of physical competence. I am tending to believe the food supplement Maca is also helpful, though somewhat hard to digest. Maca may, in conjunction with other vitamins, minerals and ginseng, have increased my willingness and ability to exercise and reap the benefits of that.
Isometrics are proving very helpful at the moment. Not directly impacting my weight but boosting an overall sense of well-being, of physical competence. I am tending to believe the food supplement Maca is also helpful, though somewhat hard to digest. Maca may, in conjunction with other vitamins, minerals and ginseng, have increased my willingness and ability to exercise and reap the benefits of that.
12st 10 3/4lb, 43 3/4", BMI 27.6, WHtR 64.8%, Body Fat 38.3%, #
I got a good chunk of exercise, missed 2 meals, the results look no more than a random fluctuation. Felt some hunger, some weakness, then spaced out after my meal - (a messy succession of sandwiches, hence the No S fail)
I'm not sorry I fasted, perhaps I would've been fatter and heavier this morning without it, but this area of life still lacks sense and balance. I'm not at peace with food and fatness.
I got a good chunk of exercise, missed 2 meals, the results look no more than a random fluctuation. Felt some hunger, some weakness, then spaced out after my meal - (a messy succession of sandwiches, hence the No S fail)
I'm not sorry I fasted, perhaps I would've been fatter and heavier this morning without it, but this area of life still lacks sense and balance. I'm not at peace with food and fatness.
12st 10 3/4lb, 43 7/8", BMI 27.6, WHtR 65%, Body Fat 38.6%, #
This scale can change its mind, from 8 1/4 to 10 3/4 today. I'll trust measure #2 as more likely. And a loitering sore nose/throat blossomed into hoarseness and a cough last night, on into today.
My plans for the fast-breaking meal were disrupted by social pressures, ramshackle eating happened, the road is long, long.
This scale can change its mind, from 8 1/4 to 10 3/4 today. I'll trust measure #2 as more likely. And a loitering sore nose/throat blossomed into hoarseness and a cough last night, on into today.
My plans for the fast-breaking meal were disrupted by social pressures, ramshackle eating happened, the road is long, long.
12st 13lb, 44 1/2", BMI 28, WHtR 65.9%, Body Fat 39.5%
How to make sense of this abrupt change? Sunday was quiet, I'm under the weather, stayed home, had breakfast of bacon, eggs and fried mashed potatoes with cheese, but otherwise what? Snacked on biscuits - is that what did it? That plus no exercise? I'm not going to fast today in case it delays recovery from my cold.
How to make sense of this abrupt change? Sunday was quiet, I'm under the weather, stayed home, had breakfast of bacon, eggs and fried mashed potatoes with cheese, but otherwise what? Snacked on biscuits - is that what did it? That plus no exercise? I'm not going to fast today in case it delays recovery from my cold.
12st 10 1/4lb, 43 7/8", BMI 27.6, WHtR 65%, Body Fat 38.7% #
Though I didn't fast I didn't eat much either. Despite a nasty chest cold I took a slow bike ride to get some essential supplies, croaking at shop assistants. I had tea with milk and sometimes some sugar. I didn't eat till the evening. I ate 4 buttered potato cakes and some Gouda (the boring yellow type, couldn't find mature). (K2 !)
Today I am about as light as I might have been if I had fasted.
Though I didn't fast I didn't eat much either. Despite a nasty chest cold I took a slow bike ride to get some essential supplies, croaking at shop assistants. I had tea with milk and sometimes some sugar. I didn't eat till the evening. I ate 4 buttered potato cakes and some Gouda (the boring yellow type, couldn't find mature). (K2 !)
Today I am about as light as I might have been if I had fasted.